Erik Leafblad, a fellow Youthfront staff member, spoke at Jacob's Well this morning. As always, Erik did a great job of preaching. The text was John 1:35-42. This is a text that has powerfully shaped my life and it was wonderful to hear my friend Erik speak about this pericope.
I wrote about my experience with this text in Presence Centered Youth Ministry. Here is an excerpt;
Looking back, it was a major crossroad in my life. I needed to get away and hear from God. During my week with Jesus I focused on a portion of scripture in John 1:35-39.
"The next day John again was standing with two of his disciples, 36and as he watched Jesus walk by, he exclaimed, “Look, here is the Lamb of God!” 37The two disciples heard him say this, and they followed Jesus. 38When Jesus turned and saw them following, he said to them, “What are you looking for?” They said to him, “Rabbi” (which translated means Teacher), “where are you staying?” 39He said to them, “Come and see.” They came and saw where he was staying, and they remained with him that day. It was about four o”clock in the afternoon."
I read this text practicing Lectio Divina several times a day. I used phrases from it to center myself. I meditated, contemplated and prayed with this amazing text. Four days into my retreat I climbed up the side of a mountain, rolled out a blanket and used the Ignatian prayer exercise of imaginative prayer to interact with the words.
I determined to imagine and pray through this text in real time. I didn’t have to spend a lot of time imagining the geography, the smells, the sounds, because I have been to Israel twenty times, so I know approximately where this event took place. I know what the Jordan River looks like near the Dead Sea, close to Jericho. I know what the weather is like, how thick the vegetation is near the meandering banks of the Jordan River. I was able to fixate on what may of happened when Jesus came over the bank and headed toward John the Baptist and his delegation.
I imagined myself sitting around John’s breakfast fire with his disciples, listening as his disciples began to discuss the plans for another day of baptizing. I imagined the personalities of these people who would follow the unconventional “baptizer” into this desolate area. And then, Jesus came through the thick vegetation over the bank toward John’s camp next to the Jordan River. John stopped mid-sentence and said, "Look, the Lamb of God!" I saw John and his cousin Jesus embrace.
Jesus and the few who were with him joined us around the fire. I imagined what it would have been like to hear stories of Jesus and John’s boyhood visits to each other’s families. I heard laughter along with serious discussions of God and the coming kingdom.
And then Jesus abruptly rose to leave. They said their goodbyes and Jesus and his few followers left. The two disciples of John followed Jesus and I imagined myself right behind them, going along to see what would happen. We hit a trail through the thicket heading into the desert. As we came into a clearing Jesus turned around, seeing the two disciples of John following him.
What happened next is just as real to me as if I was actually there in the text. I have shared this experience about a dozen and a half times, never without tears because of how deeply this impacted me, even writing this now is very emotional.
When Jesus turned around, the two disciples of John whom I was following parted like the Red Sea and Jesus came right up to me, face to face. Jesus looked past my eyes into my heart and soul.
“Mike, what do you want?”
I fell at the feet of Jesus and wept, pouring my heart out, praying, confessing, and in the end my answer was the same as John’s disciples. “Where are you staying?” “Because that is right where I want to be. I want you Jesus. I want to remain with you. To go where you go, to learn from you, to love you, to be with you.”
For one year after that experience I meditated everyday on this text. I have often used imaginative prayer since that experience. Many times the Holy Spirit has met me and spoken to me. Although, never with the intensity that I experienced God that day on the side of a mountain. But that day changed me profoundly and is something I will have for the rest of my life, for Jesus said, “Come, and you will see.”1
1 Mike King, Presence Centered Youth Ministry: Guiding Students into Spiritual Formation (Downers Grove, Ill.: InterVarsity Press, 2006), pp. 183-85.
This account was originally published in Tony Jones, The Sacred Way: Spiritual Practices for Everyday Life (Grand Rapids: Zondervan, 2004), pp. 77-79
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